what the fuck did i do now? [18 Jun 2005|04:38pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | bankshot---Operation Ivy. ] things just keep fucking going downhill. i read someone's journal and it really pissed me off, they dont even know the whole story, and i HAVE met him before, like that's anyone elses business but mine. i dont even know what the fuck i did in that situation but if you dont want to be friends with me anymore then fine fuck it. part of me doesn't want to leave buffalo but then a part of me really does. this mght sound stupid but i really need my father in my life right now, or i know myself i'll end up going down the wrong path in life. you think this is fucking easy? certain people think it is and that i dont care well guess what I DO AND YOU AREN'T MAKING THIS ANY EASIER ON ME. my mom flipped out on me about the pants i was wearing to go out and eat, my granpa called me a dirty slob, sister calls me a retard all the time, i cant wait to get the fuck away from this. i miss him so much but i know i shouldn't, i cant i cant i fucking cant. yeah well im gonna go watch a movie or something, and apparently im a "terrible" liar whatever. <3 kat 2 comments|post comment

we're devils. [16 Jun 2005|07:57pm] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | date rape---Sublime. ] simple as that. ♥ 6 comments|post comment

[15 Jun 2005|11:39pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | wonderwall---Oasis. ] everything pretty much fucking sucks. i think i've come to the conclusion that... I FUCKING SUCK AT LIFE AND EVERYTHING IS GOING DOWNHILL... i got an email from daryl..it's probly all a lie..then im told he's complaining about me/making fun of me behind my back. im trying to get over it but its so fucking hard. i have exams this week and i know i'll fail, i haven't cracked a book in weeks, let alone months. and im moving how fucking great is that? i bet so many people are happy that my nasty ass is moving. whatever. i might do something i regret but who cares you only live once! :) nite. </3 KAT 6 comments|post comment

YOUR GOD IS DEAD TO ME. [14 Jun 2005|09:15pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | information error---The Slackers. ] today was fun. took my marketing exam, it was pretty easy, i think/hope i did good on it. went to jen's, then we went to renee's got ice cream..walked around took pics. renee left..me and jen sat at some corner, then walked back to her house but my mom got me on the way back. my throat feels soo much better thank god. im scared, really scared, of what will happen when i get to florida..shit =[. im also sick of me letting people walk all over me..fuck i miss daryl..i know i shouldn't but i cant help it..this fucking sucks..great..so anyways..i got kinda pissed off today but whatever..here's a survey im fucking bored. ( Read more... ) 2 comments|post comment

shutup. [13 Jun 2005|11:09pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | ulster---Sham 69. ] today fucking sucked..woke up this morning my throat was killing me..so the idiot that iam took like 3 allergy/flu relief pills, 2 daytime nyquil pills, and some other stuff, all together i took like 15 pills, all mixed together and shit. my stomach hurt so fucking bad, i cant even describe the pain to you. my mom was going to take me to the hospital to get my stomach pumped but i ended up puking..which i hate but it was good that i did. saturday was alot of fun, caity came and got/saved me =] i was sooooooooooooo bored. me her and matt walked to her house then we went to cj's..this weird guy mike from my school was there who is a fucking weirdo..and some weird chick was there..we left mike and the chick left we went to the jackdaw thing it was bullshit because they wouldn't let you in if you were over 18 or with a parent..so caity snuck in and got her mom AND THEY ASKED HER FOR ID BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T BELIEVE THAT WAS HER MOM..then some drunken asshole accused matt of stealing which he didnt do..ughh people these days really piss me off..i saw NINO from school hah and a bunch of other people i haven't seen in awhile..met matt's cousin roger.he's kool. then i went back to caity's and slept over..we got to talk it was nice i ♥ her..so anyways today i slept most of the day, went to the doctors and the fucking asshole wouldn't give me any medicine. tomorrow i have my fucking marketing exam, ugh shoot me. i hope i pass, idk im slacking off with studying :-/. well my stomach kills and moms bitching..so later. ♥ KAT 2 comments|post comment

im trying to keep it together..but im falling apart... [11 Jun 2005|12:37am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | i'm out of touch---TSOL. ] why do i constantly fucking feel like this? every fucking minute of the day? im sick of fucking feeling like this..STOP IT KATHERINE..anyways. today was the last day of school, it was super hot in school..it was sad having it be the last day of school..i dont even know if i'm still going there next year, that makes me sad :[. and having the seniors leave that im friends with leave, it's so sad. well after school was fun, walked home with corey, nick(jesus) for a bit till he went home, bryan, milton and jen. haha milton skateboarded into the creek without a shirt on, down the ledge thing on north legion. then bryan jumped in..then we went to the bridge near the library and milton and bryan jumped off..milton was fine but bryan like hit his arm on something aha, good times i love my friends ♥. jen went home :[. we got kicked out of BK for "throwing garbage the other day" it was bullshit. so bryan left, and me corey and milton went to texas red hots..talked for a bit got food..suddenly i felt really sick..so i just walked home. got my nails done i loveee them. i was short of money but the guy was actually nice and let me slide hah. came home, slept and stuff. my throat hurts so fucking bad, i wish this would go away. i dont really want school to be over with, it makes me sad thinking about it :[. ugh i have to get some sleep i have to spend "family" time with my sister and mom..fucking shoot me please?!? i have to fucking go to fantasy island with them, i really dont want to go. whatever. nite. ♥ kat post comment

lord knows im weak... [08 Jun 2005|07:43pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | badfish---Sublime. ] so i didn't go to school today. got no fucking sleep. yeah i fucking suck. daryl fucking called me today his ex said i called her phone alot I CALLED THERE ONCE BECAUSE SHE FUCKING CALLED ME. what the fuck. and i said why couldn't you just tell me you had a fucking son? is he not that fucking important? he said oh i dont know i just dont know. i said yeah and i fucking opened up my house to you, and you dont even fucking care about me. he said " i do" i said you know i dont know what to believe from you anymore then just started bawling my eyes out..he said he would call me later. i fucking hope he doesn't, he will probly lie to me saying he loves me and try to stay here or something i really wish he would stop playing with my feelings, i bet he gets a fucking thrill out of it. and i know he doesn't care that for the past week i've been crying myself to sleep, are you fucking happy daryl? are you? common just fucking say it. i dont want to go anywhere, i just want to fucking sleep this weekend, i know that wont do any good but im sick of everything. and now im fucking sick, my throat hurts so fucking bad when i swallow. i got to see jen, milton and bryan today which was the hilight of my day. thanks for coming by and checking on me you guys..that meant alot seriousely ♥. i love my friends. im so fucking worried about exams i probly will fail knowing me, i still have to get my fucking yearbook and clean out my locker, greattttt. too much fucking stress TOO FUCKING MUCH. i still fucking suck at life and nothing will ever fucking change that EVER. ♥ KAT post comment

get out of my fucking head. [07 Jun 2005|03:01pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | communist eyes---The Germs. ] me and daryl are over fucking done. i fucking opened up my house to him and gave him a place to stay. joe was right im sorry :[ i should have listenend to him fuckk. i cant believe i bought all of his fucking lies. just the little things he did made me feel so happy, when he would kiss my cheek/forhead ahhh fuck :(. well i found out HE HAS A FUCKING SON, he cheated on me last nite with his ex AND he told me on the phone he was just using me for a place to stay, and he ditched me twice. this hurts so fucking bad. im trying to get over it i really am. Whenever im actually fucking happy ALL OF IT FUCKING GOES DOWNHILL. there's more to it but i cant stop crying. love fucking sucks bottom line. today sucked, people were pissing me off whatever. fuck it. </3 KAT 5 comments|post comment

[06 Jun 2005|04:56pm] [ mood | crappy ] where the fuck is he? i really hate it when he does this. im so dissapointed right now. all i ask for is a simple phone call..i don't think he realizes how much he really means to me... post comment

im exactly where i want to be... [05 Jun 2005|11:00am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | where eagles dare---The Misfits. ] this weekend was amazing. friday i sat on my ass and did nothing. yesterday was soo much fun. i couldn't get a ride to caity's recital i felt really bad :[ please dont be mad at me. i still have her gift, we should do something this weekend okay sweetie? ♥. i decided not to move, even tho my dad will probly force me but i cant, i cant leave, even tho buffalo is shitty i will still really miss my friends..well anywho daryl called me..him and chopper picked me up, we got booze, went to the lancaster derby or whatever i got really drunk..i puked like 3 times..i had so much fun tho, some old creepy drunk guy was hitting on me..i saw ron from school and jen it was sweet. i decided to become a vegatarian, i haven't eaten meat in like 7 days hah..so yeah..anyways then he came back to my house im surprised my mom let him but he spent the nite, we watched the breakfast club and talked and stuff, god i love him i really do. and nothing that you can say (you know who you are) will change how i feel at all so fuck you :]. i can't even remember the last time i was actually happy about something. the other nite i flipped out on some people..i shouldn't have done the things i did but they are mad at me and that's understandable, and they have the right to be..but i feel terrible and im sorry :[. ahhhhhh why did i fuck up there?..well anyways..im really happy and i love him so much. and who's going to the adicts show?!?!?! in july i need a ride/someone to go with, anyone? im bored so i stole this survey from sara (it's long). ( Read more... ) ♥ KAT 1 comment|post comment

..whatever... [03 Jun 2005|07:59pm] [ mood | sad ] why do i always do this to myself? why do i always put myself through this bullshit?. I need to be a stronger person about it, but i can't i just fucking can't. i hope with the decision i made, things may be a little bit better for me? god i fucking hope so. my head is fucking killing me, it hurts like hell. today i left school and then came back..weird..i fucking hate my school sometimes, it really just pisses me off. but school is school and i have to put up with it. im home alone, i wish he would answer the phone but he's not..he told me he would call me back but he hasn't..i have nothing to worry about right? it's all in my head. yeah..that's it. even though i have so many people that love me i feel so selfish, i feel so alone. dont you just wish you could stop something and press rewind and go all the way back and start over? if i could do that with my life, id love it. i wish that was the case. ahhhhh fuck this shit. im out. ♥ kat. 2 comments|post comment

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. [01 Jun 2005|08:09pm] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | i'm a hellcat---Nekromantix. ] uhmmm i got into a shitload of trouble in school. becase some people hah wow im not even gonna say it. they were going to put me in ILC for 10 days so my mom just took me out and i guess im staying here for the rest of the year (home) and doing my work..i miss my friends, i feel like im missing out on so much and its all because my of my mom ugh. well i got ot see jen, milton and bryan for a little bit today that was kool. fuck i cant stop thinking about him :-/ ahhh this is driving me crazy. i want to do something different with my hair color wise, any suggestions? pleasseeee. well uh im done. bye. ♥ KAT. post comment

fuck...... [30 May 2005|06:55pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | some movie on TV. ] im so fucking confused about what im doing in life right now. i honestly dont fucking know. im so fucking lost in myself. ahh. well last nite was fun, i hung out with bryan, some weird guy richard, milton, jen and matt, it was fun. bryan ended up leaivng went to his "grandmas" whatever. uhm we went to the fireworks (me, jen, matt and milton) went back to my house got some booze and liquor. matt got really drunk, i got drunk too but not super drunk. saw adam riley hah, chilled at the casino for a bit. then i slept over jens house. here iam now. im bored here's a survey. You are...(looks) [x] tall [ ] in between [ ]short [x] blonde [ ] redhead [x] brunette [ ] black [x] blue-eyed [ ] brown-eyed [ ] green-eyed [ ] hazel eyed [ ] gold/gray eyed [ ] glasses [ ] contacts [x] braces [x] freckles [x] piercings [ ] tatoos [ ] long hair [x] short hair [ ] med. Hair Your nationality includes... [ ] chinese [ ] indian [ ] taiwanese [ ] japanese [ ] hispanic [ ] nicoya [ ] puerto rican [ ] chicana [ ] italian [x] scottish [ ] filipino [ ] dutch [ ] french [ ] german [x] irish [ ] greek [ ] portugeese [ ] polish [ ] korean [ ] swedish [ ] jamacian [ ] canadian [ ] lithuanian [ ] Native American [ ] Russian [ ] British [ ] African [x] Other [ ] Have no idea Your favorite color(s) are? [ ] red [x] pink [ ] yellow [x] black [ ] green [x] blue [ ] white [ ] silver [ ] purple [ ] brown [ ] orange [ ] other Some sports/physical things you have done? [ ] real football when you actually use your feet [x] cheerleading [x] dancing [ ] lacross [ ] field hockey [ ] hockey [ ] football [x] softball [ ] wrestling [x] gymnastics [x] track/cross country [x] Basketball [x] baseball [ ] golf [ ] playing in the mud [x] playing music [x] hiking [ ] kayaking [x] camping [x] horseback riding [ ] marching band. . . thats right!!! It's a sport! [x] good ole' fashion sex!!!!! Your personality is sometimes... [ ] annoying [x] talkative [ ] shy [x] funny [x] serious [ ] bubbly [x] spazzy [x] fun loving [x] laid back [ ] strict [x] hyper [x] weird The music you like is? [ ] rap [x] rock [ ] pop [ ] country [ ] hiphop [ ] r&b [ ] slow jams [ ] Christian [ ] classical [ ] techno [ ] oldies [x] punk [ ]Metal [ ] reggae [ ] Goth [ ] Latin [ ] showtunes [ ] ska [ ] skacore [x] other The pets you have are? [x] cat [x] dog [ ] lizard [ ] rat [ ] ferret [ ] rabbit [x] fish [ ] other [ ] bird [ ] none Clothes you like to wear are? [ ] plain tshirts [x] sweatshirts [x] hoodies [ ] stockings [ ] high heels [x] sneakers [ ] boots [x] jeans [x] pj pants [ ] boxers [x] underwear [ ] dresses [x] mini skirts [ ] long skirts [ ] watches [x] necklace [ ] hoop earring(s) [ ] toe socks [ ] flip flops [ ] halter tops [ ] stilletos [x] band shirts [ ] shorts How do you like to wear your hair? [x] down [ ] ponytail [ ] pigtails [ ] messy bun [ ] half ponytail [ ] scrunched/curly [ ] bun [ ] crimped [x] with a bandana [ ] French braids [ ] lots of little braids [x] Gel [ ] Hat [x] messy [ ] Fohawk!!! Kinda like a Mohawk!!! [x] straight [x] how ever the fuck i like [x] i have my own style You're mostly labeled as? [ ] goth [ ] emo [ ] prep [ ] loner [x] punk [ ] hippie [ ] nerd [ ] ditzy [x] loud [ ] happy [ ] everything [x] I hate labels [x] i have no idea [ ] MetalHead You eat? [x] dessert [ ] no red meat [x] healthy foods [x] junk foods [ ] a lot of carbs [x] meat [x] salad [x] seafood A typical friday night... [ ] mall with your friends [x] partying.. deffinetly [ ] watching movies [ ] going to the club [ ] staying home [ ] babysitting and getting $$ [x] hanging out w/ my friends [ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend [ ] working while your friends are out having fun [x] drinking Online, you use: [ ] lol [x] sup [ ] =D [ ] lmao [ ] stfu [ ] ty [x] jk [x] ttyl [ ] lylas/lylab [x] g2g [ ] ^^ [ ] T_T [ ] None Did you like this survey? [ ] yeah [x] no! [ ] it was ok [ ] it was something to do yeah that was stupid. bye. ♥ kat post comment

i dont know what to say or do... [29 May 2005|01:41am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | atomic---Tiger Army. ] found out something today im not exactly too happy about. i dont want this school year to end. fuckk the last day of school i will bawl my eyes out. i need to see my friends tomorrow i have to tell them something, this sucks :(. its funny how daryl says he will call me and never fucking does. i dont know what to believe, i fucking love this. whatever im done here's a fucking survey. Let's start with the ADVANCED basics Name:-katherine. Nicknames:-kat, kathreen. Age:-16. Birthday:-september 1st. Birthplace:-baltimore, MD. Current Residence:-buffalo, NY. Zodiac:-virgo. Parents:-i only live with my mom.. Siblings:-one sister. Pets:-2 cats, and 3 fish. School:-south park. School Mascot:-a bear i think? i dont fucking know. School Rival:-timon. Grade:-10 suppost to be 11th, yeah fuck you. Favorite Book:-to kill a mockingbird. Movie:-alice in wonderland. TV Show:-family guy. Cartoon:-fairly oddparents. Anime:-ew fuck no. Manga:-what??. Superhero:-noone. Family Member:-my aunt maureen. Animal:-leopard. Subject:-nothing. Color:-black and pink. Clothes Brand:-i dont care. Store:-amvets. Food:-chinese food/pizza. Villian:-idk. Shoe Brand:-does it matter?. Band:-at the moment, leftover crack, and the adicts. Song:-idk i like too many. CD:-all of them. Hero:-noone. Mystical Creature:-nothing. Candy:-those tollhouse cookie bar things. Quote:-nothing. Teacher:-mr.toole. Website:-www.myspace.com Instant Message Program:-AIM. Car:-doesn't matter, as long as it gets me around. Preference? Pepsi/Coke:-pepsi ofcourse. Dog/Cat:-both. Car/Truck:-both. Suicide/Murder:-i dont know. Guy/Gal:-guys. White/Black:-black. Dark/Light:-dark. Pink/Blue:-both. TV/Computer:-computer. Chatting/Surfing:-chatting. Ocean/Swimming Pool:-ocean. Comedy/Horror:-both. Rock/Punk:-punk. Republican/Democrat:-neither, i fucking hate politics. War/Peace:-peace. Good/Evil:-good. Sunny/Cloudy:-sunny. Winter/Summer:-summer. Spring/Fall:-spring. Birthday/Christmas:-birthday. Halloween/Easter:-halloween. Jesus/Satan:-neither. Jeans/Khaki:-jeans. Movies/TV Shows:-movies. Books/Comics:-neither. Hot Topic/Hollister:-neither. Hugs/Kisses:-both. Wonderful Friends Best:-jen, caity and bryan. Weirdest:-milton hah. Drug Addict:-milton! jk. Whore:-none... Most Hyper:-jen. Funny:-jen and bryan. Depressed:-idk. Smartest:-nick. The Nerd:-idk. Stranded on an Island ... 5 things you'd bring with you:-cd player, CDs, batteries, a lighter, and underwear. 5 friends you'd want with you:-jen, caity, bryan, brendan, and danielle. Shelter:-i dont fucking know. Food:-uhhhhh idk. The leader would be:-whoever everyone agress to be. Why them:-oh my god. Who would get you killed:-i dont know. Try to escape:-dont know. Cuddle up to when it's cold:-all of them!. Get mad at the quickest:-idk. Love Life Single:-yes. Boyfriend or Girlfriend:-nope. Kissed:-yes. Hugged:-yes. Length of relationship:-.... Internet or Real Life:-real. Have a crush:-yup. What's their name:-none of your fucking business. Age of this person:-18. Have you been dumped:-yes. Have you dumped somebody:-yup. Been rejected:-many times. Rejected somebody:-yes. Asked someone out:-yeah. Been asked out:-yup. Have you ever Written a poem:-yup. Written a song:-yea but it sucks. Written a book:-no. Sang in a play:-yes. Sang a solo:-no. Sang just for the hell of it:-yeah. Done drugs:-yes. Drank alcohol:-yeah. Been tricked into drinking:-no. Smoked a cigarette:-yup. Played addictinggames.com:-no. Played an Xbox:-no. Played a Playstation 1 or 2:-yes, both. Played Dreamcast:-no. Played Gamecube:-no. Played Sega Genesis:-no. Played a GBA:-nope. Played an old NES system:-no. Played atari:-no. Played a computer game:-yeah. Watched a Star Wars movie:-shut the fuck up about fucking star wars, seriousely god damn. Watched Star Trek:-no. Watched Stargate:-no. Watched Pokemon:-yeah. Watched DragonBallZ:-no. Watched Yu-Gi-Oh!:-no. Collected Pokemon cards:-haha i did. Collected DBZ cards:-nope. Collected Yu-Gi-Oh! cards:-no. Created your own anime characters:-ew no. Been to an anime convention:-fuck anime ew. Bought a car:-i wish. Gotten a car for your birthday:-once again i wish. Been to gaiaonline.com:-nope. Funny Business ;p What is the current time:-2:00 AM. What is the current weather:-i dont fucking know. Where are you:-home. When did you last cuss:-earlier today. Who is with you:-noone. What shampoo do you use:-herbal essence. Do you believe in ghosts:-yes. How many kids do you want:-none. What would be their names:-^^^^. For or Against Suicide:-against. Gay marriage:-for. War:-against. Bush:-against. America:-against and for. Stereotyping:-against. Last But Not Least Do you hate me for making this so long:-i dont even fucking know you. Does the world piss you off constantly:-most of the time. Do you like turtles: -yup. Who is the stupidest person you know:-some people in school. Who do you love the most:-my friends. yeah im done. fuck this shit. ♥ kat 2 comments|post comment

i fucking knew it [27 May 2005|02:39pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | baby games---7Seconds. ] it was all a fucking lie. im not worth it, i never fucking was, nothing will ever fucking go my way. im dumb i stayed home from school because i was worried about him but the worst thing is to worry about a fucking liar. now im grounded and i cant do anything till school is over. my computer will probably get taken away. i fucking suck at life, im sick of it. are you happy that im fucking miserable? fuck living. </3 kat 3 comments|post comment

fuck the police they're gang control, we've gotta take it back, everyone get up and let's go! [26 May 2005|06:18pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | gang control---Leftover Crack. ] school was boring sorta. i have a massive bruise on my hip from hitting a wall..oh god. some bitch at my school was pissing me off so i flipped out on her in english fucking bitch. daryl called me :) for the first time in like forever..im actually happy..i used to care so much what people think but now..i really dont give two shits just from realizing from all this shit that's happening..im probly gonna hang out with him tomorrow or tonite (i hope) goddd i really like that boy. my aunt came here from NYC, my family is so fucking annoying, they are soo loud ugh, they are like the "ya ya" sisters hah. ive been listening to leftover crack like..alot lately..they get me excited hah...uhmm well idk im bored so here's a survey. UNIQUE 1. Nervous Habits:-biting my bottom lip, and chewing on my nails. 2. Are you double jointed:-no. 3. Can you roll your tongue:-yeah?. 4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time:-YES!. 5. Can you blow spit bubbles:-uh huh. 6. Can you cross your eyes:-yes. 7. Tattoos:-no i wouldn't mind some tho. 8. Piercings:-5 (ears) lip hopefully soon. 9. Do you make your bed daily:-hahaha yeah okay. CLOTHES 10. Which shoe goes on first:-does it matter?. 11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone:-yeah. 12. On the average, how much money do you carry:-alot im rich bitch ;) actually..no haha. 14. Favorite piece of clothing:-my belt. FOOD 15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it:-jesus christ does it really fucking matter?. 16. Have you ever eaten Spam:-ew no. 17. Favorite ice cream flavor:-mint chip. 18. How much cereal is in your cabinet:-i dont fucking know. 19. What's your favorite beverage:-pepsi. 20. What's your favorite restaurant:-mighty taco. 21. Do you cook?:-yup. 22. How often do you brush your teeth:-every morning and every nite. 23. Hair drying method:-are you fucking serious? wow. 24. Have you ever colored / highlighted your hair:-hahahah too many times. MANNERS 25. Do you swear:-yup. 26. Do you ever spit:-yes. FAVORITE 27. Animal:-white tigers, galagos, pitbulls and leopards. 28. Foods:-pizza and chinese food. 29. Month:-july. 30. Day:-friday. 31. Cartoon:-fairly oddparents DUH. 32. Shoe Brand:-vans idk. 33. Subject in school:-nothing. 34. Color:-hot pink with black, and blue (by itself). 35. Sport:-i absolutely HATE sports. 36. TV show:-idk i dont really watch that much TV anymore. 37. Thing to do in the spring:-chill. 38. Thing to do in the summer:-chill. 39. Thing to do in the fall:-chill. 40. Thing to do in the winter:-sleep. IN AND AROUND 41. In the CD player:-"Energy"~ Operation Ivy. 42. Person you talk most on the phone with:-jen. 44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors:-yeah hah. 45. What color is your bedroom:-blue with posters. 46. Do you use an alarm clock:-yea but it never wakes me up. 47. Window seat or aisle:-aisle. LA LA LAND 48. What's your sleeping position:-side. 49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket:-yes. 50. Do you snore:-no. 51. Do you sleepwalk:-no. 52. Do you talk in your sleep:-no. 53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals:-yeah got a problem with that?. 54. How about with the light on:-no. 55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on:-usually with my CD player on. 56. Last interesting person you met:-people from spot. yeah im done. ♥ KAT post comment

there's nothing i can do or say... [25 May 2005|09:40pm] [ mood | worried and sad. ] [ music | to the world---Strike Anywhere. ] today was fun. caity and jen slept over last nite. i was the only one up hah, they fell asleep watching the new exorcist movie we ordered on pay-per view and they ordered porn hah. we went to go see her boo this morning..well looked for him hah went to rite-aid got some lip gloss and stuff. went to go get bryan he wasn't there, so we just went to jens, caity left. milton came over, we went to burger king. then walked around caz looking at scumfest getting set up. i felt so bad for the ponies :( it was cruel. then we met up with danielle and matt, went to the dollar tree sat in the ames parking lot talked and stuff, it was kool, i like hanging out with them. my mom is fucking watching american idol i dont see what the big deal is with this show i personally think it sucks. well anyways....jen and milton go back out :) cuteeeeee. so.... last nite daryl asked me out..he stayed at ian's and now ian apparently has no fucking idea where he is..im soo fucking worried, i cant eat or sleep, i feel like a crazy bitch, i just dont want to lose him. i have no way of fucking contacting him, fuckkkkkkkkk this sucks :(. pics from today. ( Read more... ) ♥ 1 comment|post comment

2nd post today sorry. [22 May 2005|08:56pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | just like clockwork--Lower Class Brats. ] yeah my mom is a fucking douche bag. if i dont pass all my exams i have to stay in florida with my dad the whole fucking summer and take summer school there. hell fucking no, i fucking hate my dad, if he died it wouldn't even phase me, if she misses him so much why doesnt she fly her fucking ass down there? yeah i told her that and she didn't say shit. i fucking hate my family. my granma is crazy but where is she when i need her??!!!. and another thing thats annoying lately is the new star wars movie, i dont see what the big deal is with that fucking movie, i could care less about it, just shut the fuck up about it already god damn. i need a job really bad too, i called wegmans and they never fucking called me back fuckk, and i decided im going to stay after for review mostly every other day for exams and stuff, i have to pass every single fucking one, whatever my head is killing me so survey time. whatever. p.s.. i cant wait for this weekend chillin with the php people going to chuckie cheeses and lasertron, with jen too!!!!! cant wait. :: Stole this from Mary :: [jewelry worn daily]:-just my shoelace choker thing. [pillow cover]:-blue and green checkers. [shoes]:-adios, my chucks are gone :(. [cologne/perfume]:-hawiian ginger stuff and victoria secret's lovespell. [piercings]:-5. [clothes your wearing now]:-blue pj pants, and DK t-shirt. [hair]:-brown with some blonde. [room]:-uh...it's blue with posters. MIXED QUESTIONS: [after this]:-im taking a shower. [talking to]:-jen. [eating]:-cheese popcorn. [some of your fav. movies]:-a clockwork orange, gothika, anddd alot more. [something youre looking forward to in the upcoming months]:-lowerclass brats show/clit 45, the adicts show and mostly SUMMER. [something you fear]:-failing my exams, turkeys hah, and falling off of a cliff. [three cities you wouldn't mind relocating to]:-NYC, London, and LA. [some of your fav. foods]:-chinese food. [something you wish you could understand better]:-myself. [have you missed someone you haven't seen in a long time]:-oh yeah. [like candles]:-yes. [like incense]:-love it bt the kind nag champa is REALLY strong. [believe in love]:-yeah. [believe in love at first sight]:-not really. [want to get married]:-no. [want to have kids]:-fuck no. IN THE LAST 24 HRS HAVE YOU: [cried]:-yes. [bought something]:-no. [sang]:-yup. [eaten]:-yeah. [been kissed]:-no. [felt stupid]:-no. [wanted to tell someone you liked them, but didn't]:-yes. [met someone new]:-no. [moved on]:-hah i wish. [talked to an ex]:-fuck no. [missed an ex]:-no..well sometimes. [talked to someone you have a crush on]:-yup. [missed someone]:-oh yeah. [hugged someone]:-no. [fought with your parents]:-yes my mom like 12 times today. SOCIAL LIFE: [boyfriend/girlfriend]:-single. [how long have u been with this person]:-im single. [who is it?]:^^^. [hobbies]:-music, chillin with friends. [are you the center of attention]:-no. [would you rather be with friends or on a date]:-friends. [attend church]:-hell no. [like being around people]:-yeah. PERSONAL: [who is your role model]:-noone. [pet peeves]:-too many things. [ever liked someone you had no chance with]:-oh yeah. [ever lied to your best friend]:-a few times. [ever wanted to get revenge on someone b/c they hurt you]:-yess. [have a certain "type" of person you go after]:-kinda. [rather have a relationship or "hook-up"]:-well at this point, a relationship. [what is your fav. part of your physical appearance]:-nothing really. [what is your fav. part of your emotional being]:-my humor? [are you happy with yourself]:-sometimes. [ IN YOUR ROOM ] What size of bed do you have?::-twin. Is your floor carpeted?:-half. Do you keep your room clean, or is there junk all over the floor?:-normally there's junk all over the floor, but it's clean right now. Are you allowed to eat in your room?:-yeah why the fuck not? [ ABOUT YOU ] Are you male or female?:-female. Are you sure?:-yes haha. Are you single or married?:-single. Do you have any tattoos? what?:-no i wish. Do you like your name?:-no, i hate my full name but i like my nickname. Do you shave your legs?:-yeah. [ MISC. ] Do you have a job?:-no i neeeddddddddd one. Is your computer slow?:-sometimes. What do you hear right now?:-music. What do you smell right now?:-laundry. im tireddddd, later. ♥ KAT. 12 comments|post comment

[22 May 2005|03:53pm] [ mood | tired ] so i decided to make my journal non-friends only anymore. oh well i dont care. i dont feel the need to keep it friends only just because of a certain few people fuck that shit. total choas is coming tuesday and i wanna go but i have no ride or money this blows. then may 31st lower class brats and clit 45 are going, want to go to that too, THEN THE ADICTS IN JULY!!! i cant fucking wait. i better not be in florida. well im bored and i have to go clean so peace. ♥ kat 2 comments|post comment

[21 May 2005|05:19pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Oowee Baby---The Cramps. ] Your Horoscope for May 21 , 2005 "It may be the weekend, but you will probably find yourself immersed in work or a project. A favor will be granted if you ask, so don't hesitate to ask for help. Don't count on getting what you want when it comes to love." ugh..fucking figures..still haven't heard from jimmy..i think i know what that means?..wow im dumb. anywho. yesterday was alot of fun. didn't go to school because i overslept,and i woke up at like 11:45. so i chilled around my house, then went to caity's brendan came, we went to jo jo's talked, it was fun, i saw my old english teacher mr.knisely hah! uhmm....then caity's dad came and got us and we saw house of wax, it was good/kinda weird i liked it. they barely show paris hilton in it haha only like when she's like half naked haha wow. then we went to dick's i took one of those like long stick things that the people that work there to take down clothes that are high up..well i took this baseball helmet off of a dummy thing and i tried to put it back on but it knocked off hahahahaha..good times..well uhh my mom found condoms in my purse..and this morning she flipped out saying she's going to make flight arrangements for florida..she better not or i told her when i get older she wont even know where i live, or she wont have any type of contact with me. whatever her loss i guess?. i wanna go to the show really bad today i miss alicia and gena, but i have no ride and my mom is being a bitch about me riding the bus wtf, im sick of this shit, i really wish i wouldn't beat myself up over a certain thing but i cant help it..well here's pics from yesterday.. ( Read more... ) that's about it ugh im boredddd. ♥ kat post comment

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